April 10, 2019 (Poem)
April 10, 2019
by Phoenix Monea
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Turn the page
Living day to day
Check to check
Barely getting by
Barely aware
Barely alive
Turn the page
Days of a daze that seems never ending
Am I going left or right up or down
Turn the page
The dreams I have while my soul is at rest
Does not match up to the reality
When my eyes are open
I feel helpless, hopeless
Lost and confused
I’m trying to stand in truth
Live in purpose
But I am stuck in a wage that does not satisfy the soul
Nourish the heart or elevate my spirit
Clock in, clock out
Sleep, repeat
Clock in clock out
Sleep, repeat
Turn the page
Another year of maybe one day
Another year of “I can’t right now”
Another year of “I’ll live tomorrow”
Living in the shadows of my shadows
Letting my dreams become just that, a dream
So, I turn the page, and turn the page
Regret and rage, I turn the page
And, f&@$ it!!
What’s the point? I give up!
I didn’t even try, but the thought alone makes me want to give up.
Throw the whole day away. Burn the book, f@$! the page
This. Is. Life.
Clock in, clock out repeat. No sleep. Scraping by.
Clock in, clock out. Cry it out, repeat.
Pain in my eyes, heart in my soul.
I’m leaving this earth with my story untold.
But, as I’m ready to let go, I look up and see a new day.
What a blessing is this new day!!
I pace and I pace making sense of it all.
I look into my daughters eyes
And see something I have never seen before.
Hope. Courage. Strength.
I pick up the book.
Most of the pages are worn. unrecognizable.
But there are still some blank pages left.
So I turn the page and I fill it with hope
Turn the page and I fill it with truth
Fill the next with peace
The next with love the next with purpose
No longer clocking in for a check.
But clocking into purpose.
Turn the page and just like that, my story is told.
And what a beautiful one it is.