Doubt

Doubt

Beginning this journey of starting a magazine platform has introduced doubt into my psyche. Doubt in my ability to get it done. Doubt that I was doing the right thing. Doubt that I was the person to do it. It's often said that when you are on the right track that is when things become the hardest. It reminds me of my first few years in my Ph.D. program where I always doubted myself and my belonging. For this reason and others, Late Fee magazine has stalled.

On the outside things look great, but on the inside, I have doubt, fear, dread, and many other dark things brewing on the inside. It takes a lot for me to admit this to you guys, but it's true. I have failed myself and the artists I have sought to help and enable by giving into this doubt. For that, I apologize to you all. Forgive me for my inner demons and please continue to support me as I grow in this process.

I am sorry. This magazine platform isn't about me. It's about helping people of color have spaces to express themselves. In December, as part of a drive to overcome that doubt, I curated a space called 'God's Plan for Us" which is a zine curated and supported by Late Fee Mag. The first issue featured four artists of color and resulted in a pdf and print zine which sold over 20 copies (amazing).

It gave the artists within a feeling of accomplishment, love, and support from their community. Late Fee Mag was able to do that and by doing that it strengthened my resolve that Late Fee is a space creator. It is not just about one magazine. It is not about one person. It's about all of us. If you're reading this, that means that the website has launched and we are taking steps towards greatness.

Thank you.